I’m losing hope at Bishops Stortford. I’m keeping the players’ morale up, but mine’s on the floor. We’re twenty-seven matches in now and sitting firmly in 21st place in the Conference South. Our last match was a real killer – we went 1-0 up, but then our opponents got two penalties and ran away with the points.

Looking at the stats, it seems Jack Midson is the second highest scorer in the league this season, but we’re very high up in the goals conceded list. That’s getting better now I’ve brought in Foster on loan to sit back on the right – he’s only a solid 7, but that’s better than anyone else I’ve got there – but I’m still not doing well enough.

I really, really want to save the club and my job now; if we can just scrape through this season then I can use my experience next season to take us further up the table – and hopefully take me into a better job. I’m aiming to be a Premiership manager within a few seasons, but that’s not looking likely right now.

We’ve just got to improve. Not a lot, but just enough so we edge these close matches. We’ve got to do it for the club, for the 352 people who come to see us play each week and, most of all, for me, so I don’t have to start a new game at the end of this season.